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when you finally grow the coconuts to share your thoughts to the one you admire you feel fear, you feel excitement, and you don't expect them to answer back. but when they do you feel a moment of floating above all. then you are brought back down crashing. when they now look at you diffrently when they say friend after every good night after every joke when you have to stop waiting with bated breath now we talk and pray that the awkward feelings will go away. i hope one day since i know we could never be that we could be normal again i dont want to lose you.

A hair cut is like a new start It can make you feel elegant Happy Sexy I go with the latter   For once I feel like I can conquer anything   I feel like I could become someone who doesn’t feel meek   I feel like I can see me getting in a relationship for once I feel like I finally have a new day ahead of me   I feel for once that I can talk about myself confidentially It makes me feel like I can start a change and become who I want to be See a hair cut is a new start   I for one am ready for that start

I feel so alone I feel no joy when we stop talking I eel a pit in my stomach   It eats my stomach to the point of not eating for days When we do talk I become a giggling mess I hope some day we can be together but I no that will never happen I imagine soft lips and softer hugs   I just want to be yours and you to be mine but that is not ever going to happen   I want to wake up and see your sleepy glare   I want to make you happy I want to see you more I want you to be my first, but this will not happen.   We are too different I must except this and I will I just need one more talk and then I will let you go I’ll watch you walk into h